You lied about Cancer
You lied about Love
You lied about your Life
Anything missing from above?

I wrote poems for you
I called you my muse
my best-est friend
but it was all a roose

Nothing was real
except my will
to believe “it wasn’t you”
“she must be ill”!!!
To do that to family,
To do that to friends
I told you everything
I’ll never do that again.

The depth of your deception is as deep as the ocean
I am drowning in it, in slow motion
I look down at my feet and what has anchored me down
is your betrayal and my pain
I want to drown

You used me to enhance your evil lies
your personal crusade to ruin the lives
of everyone who loved you
and called you a friend
What the fuck mate?
How did you really think this would end?

But you’ve left your mark
On my skin
I miss my mate
I let you in
You were my every thought
I made your lies my burden
I carried them with me
It is only now I’m not certain
Of what was real and what was not
Most days I feel like i’ve lost the plot?!

You were never yourself
and I’ve got to let you go
and face the reality that I’ll never really know.




For Asha, who broke my f**king heart and then vanished.


  1. June 19, 2017 / 3:00 pm

    I have no way to understand how you must feel or words to make anything better all I can do is send you all my love ❤

  2. Melanie
    June 19, 2017 / 4:10 pm


  3. Tracy
    June 19, 2017 / 5:11 pm

    You have such a gift with words. I can hear you in my mind speak this as I read down the page. I am truly sorry this happened to you and cannot begin to imagine what it feels like. I hope you find comfort and strength from the love of family and friends xxx p.s hope Mickey D has not returned 😉🐭😘

  4. Vic
    June 19, 2017 / 5:50 pm

    I’m so sorry Natasha. I just posted on your insta this afternoon ranting about it all. I’m so sad for you and angry for everyone. Lots of love ❤️

  5. June 20, 2017 / 10:25 am

    God, what in the hell? Sending you love dude. x

  6. Louise
    June 20, 2017 / 5:08 pm

    Such a beautifully written poem. It really demonstrates your anger and then sadness 🙁
    I hope you are doing ok x

  7. June 21, 2017 / 12:48 pm

    Cannot get my head around what happened I was just looking for Asha’s Instagram to see how she was doing and couldn’t find it. Can’t believe she’s done that you must feel so pissed Hun. Stay strong x

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